Peanut Butter!

I woke up this morning and after getting ready I went downstairs and opened the fridge. I totally forgot my favorite Christmas gift that I got from Grandma.
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Amish Peanut Butter! It is freaking amazing. If you want a taste of heaven - get the Amish Peanut Butter from Shipshewana!

Christmas!

I've had such a wonderful day, and spending Christmas day with the DeLancey family was just awesome. I'm thankful for having such a good hostfamily as You.
Last night I baked till 5 am. Went to bed at 7am. Woke up at 10am. Cooked till 4pm. Then Grandma S, Uncle J, Megan, Nicki and her family came over for the Christmas party at our house. I had a really good time. It's now 12:45am. So I am just gonna post my Christmas presents, and then go to bed. Hope that's aight with u guys. :)

Fussy slipperboots, an official colts jersey (Garcon), a box with imprinted words (friends forever... tmr, today, always.) and a mirror in it, a watch, heiress package with perfume lotion and stuff, a trine hoodie, pajama pants and shirt, a coach bag and wallet, a crystal, a cookbook, a puzzle thing, a lucky brand shirt and UGG boots.

XOXO.
J.

11:22

"The producers of Twilight have picked up Lauren’s book series for a movie, which is currently in its initial stages.".. SAY WHAAAT! Imbala man! Putting that on my to-do-list with Karina.

..Anyways. I haven't been up to anything exciting this week other than preparing myself for my finals, which is going to be next week on Monday and Tuesday. Finals are tests that you take by the end of your semester and it contains questions about everything you've learned in that semester. I am lucky to only have 3 of those. One in Algebra II, U.S History and American Literature. Wednesday we're doing nothing at school, and then it's Christmas Break!!! Which means Christmas Parties, and the long-awaited 3-days Chicago trip with my family! (JK.. didn't really wait that long. Found out about it a couple weeks ago) I am so very excited!
Having spent most of my money on christmas presents, Idk if I'm going to shop a whole lot. Definitely going to buy Lauren Conrad's new Style-Book to add on my collection of her work. I feel no rush to shop as we have an awesome mall just an hour from here.

It is now 11:30AM. and I am waiting for my laundry to get done, so I can get ready to pick up Hannah with my dad. Tonight, Lexy, Hannah and I (hopefully Melissa) are going to have a Soccer-Party, and afterward we might go to the Coffee Shop; Cahoots, to see my friends' concert. Let's hope so, cause I would like to hear my song dedicated to me! :D

That's it for now. Farewell so long.
Love you, K.
XOXO

Weak..

I've never felt so lost before. I was so sure that this experience wouldn't change me as a person. It feels so weird.. so wrong.. but I guess I will have to struggle through it, cuz it will get better, right?
I want to dance.
XOXO.

Hold on.

Does it feel better knowing that you're not the only one? Probably doesn't make the big difference, but believe it or not - I feel left out sometimes. Lonely, down, depressed and lost. My head is messed up, but I try to forget about it, even though I shouldn't cuz it's all gonna come back to me again. What makes me happy is thinking about you and the others. I've imagined me arriving at the airport, crying when seeing you and the family, and you know what? It's all going to be worth it in the end. Me and you against the world sweetie. If your feeling down, try to write it down, just get it all out.
You remember when I used to sing Hold on by Jonas Brothers with you? So goofy, but it makes me smile, and I hope that you will feel good and smile for just 10 secs. by reading this.
I love you, K. and I miss you like hell.. everyday.

Sometimes you just have to quit..

..So I am officially off the cheerleadingsquad now. I decided to quit yesterday morning, because it didn't fit my style at all. Being the center of attention is not who I am, and I refuse to keep trying to do something I don't really like. I said to myself: You complain everyday - so go ahead.. get a piece of paper and write down the reasons why you're staying on the team, and the answer was a blank sheet of paper. One of my favorite quotes is: A quitter never wins, and a winner never quits. But I'd rather win in something I like to do, everything else would be a waste of time. Also today in the art-room I saw the saying: Get a job you love, and you will never have to work another day in your life.
..Word!